I would like to think I have come a long way..........

The other day I was down in our storage area when the girls were down for a nap, and I saw a box that holds all of my old journals.....hours later I was half sorry I started down that road! My heavens! I could not stop reading! I could not wait to find out what happened next in my life! It was like a real life soap opera! I was laughing out loud, and crying at times. I had butterflies in my stomach all over again reading about people I had forgotten about, that at one point I had HUGE crushes on! I experienced heart braking moments all over again......when at the time these moments seemed like the end of the world. I found myself wanting to go back in time and apologize to people. Most of the time I kept reading thinking about how big of a dork I was! Ah the things I would say or do?! It was interesting though to read about myself, and to remember the person I use to be or so I thought! I found that as I was reading I still had a lot of those same feelings inside of me. The same wants, the same desires, the same dorky ways of expressing myself. Becoming a mother has changed me in a lot of good ways, but I find that it has not buried the other person I was. Maybe in someways, but not many. As I approached the end of my journal reading I defiantly came to the conclusion that I have to set these on fire! If my daughters got hold of these they would defiantly have some leverage against me! I would like to think that If I was sent back in time, I would do better! That I would listen to my parents more! If I am being honest though I would probably do the same things I did all over again...... if I were put back in that setting.